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“Do you hearso damn loudly
“You're killing h
“Don't be so goddamn dramatic!”
“You're killingto you I know you think I disrespected you, but I didn't set out to fall in love with anyone, let alone hi to take him away from me Why, Draven? Would it really be so bad for me to be happy with him?”
“You'll understand one day” He doesn't even look atthis out with me
I dig intoI stashed there containing the lone hair “Here,” I hand it to hi at him “Your sample”
“How did you get this?”
“Snagged it of his cut when I got off his bike, he didn't even notice I put it in the bag when I followed him inside” There's no effort inleft inside of me
Heinto his pocket
“Is he dead?” I know I shouldn't ask, but I just need to know
“If he is, you have no one to blame but yourself” That was like a stab to my heart because I know it's the truth And I knohat I have to do All hope is lost and I have nothing left to fight for
The car pulls up outside of the house where I aht to e for dinner I pull on black pants and a black shirt I do it almost robotically I don't feel like I'm here I'm dead in every way but literally
I ht Draven is sitting at the head of the table, Maria to his right,he sent the saht God forbid he should have to wait until tomorrow
Maria sry, I haven't been since this whole thing started Hell, I've lost a dress size because of it Maria knohat this is doing to me, we've talked about it She wanted to knohat it was like to be in love with a man like Ghost, so I told her She found our story to be so romantic
God, I'm twenty-four and I feel a hundred years old
Draven is talking like nothing is happening Like everything is just fine when reality couldn't be further fro so, he killed me too
A to be with the man I love?
Do I deserve to spend the rest ofhe died because of me?
I know people say you et easier, you find someone else and fall in love But I will never love anyone else as long as I live
I honestly can't do this anymore
I'm tired, but my heart is so broken, and I just want out of this life
I'll meet Danny on the other side and we'll have all of eternity to be together
We'll be timeless and forever in love
I sht, and I breathe a little easier
No one notices me slip my steak knife under the table I keep my eyes on them as they talk I alondered how anyone could cut their wrists Do they flinch when that knife cuts into their skin? Do they hiss at the pain?
I don't know about other people, but I neither flinch nor do I hiss It burns only for aAll I need to do is keep h so neither of them will notice until it's too late
“Avery, you're not eating That won't help, you know?” I look at Draven through suddenly heavy eyes and slassy, his narrow “Have you taken so?”
I'd laugh if the muscles in my mouth would work, but instead, I shake my head just as the knife slips froers and clatters to the floor Maria looks under the table and lets out a bloodcurdling screaer
I feel ar ether and abovebut calm
Everything will be all right, Danny, I'
“You silly fucking little girl! Why would you do this?!” My cousin's voice hisses in my ear He's a smart man, how can he ask me that?
“I love him” I force out of my very dry mouth “You took him from me I want to be with him”
“I a you die, Avery!”
“Not your choice”
There is nothing left to say My hearing is failing me All is calm inside of me
I'm on my way, Danny