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Introduction

Thank you so much to all my readers for your love and support So h this difficult period in ive up, but your ement have kept me upbeat

You’ll never kno much love I have for each and everyone of you You are not just readers and fans to me, you’re friends, and if I could put into words what you all mean to me, I would

Just know that you all hold a special place in my heart

– Alivia

Prologue

Hammer

I own everything I've been through in this life The loss of my parent's when I enty The loss of o The men I've killed The lives I've ruined Maybe I deserve to lose so ets easier to take

Loss becae It beca I was prepared for it all The life I lead doesn't leave much room not to be prepared for death It beco

What I wasn't prepared for was al Willow the same way I lost Cindy,her die The only difference is, I wasn't there when Cindy was killed I had to watch it all through a video link With Willoas right there I saw the whole thing I kept her alive until she was ripped from my arms

Ain't no man on this earth could ever tella woman that means the world to hiive a fuck if you're a biker, a doctor, a lawyer or just a lazy all out fuckin' bum We all eat, sleep, shit and fuck the same And I did cry By myself, I cried for her

She's not just any wohter of the President of the Snakes Hench for over the past fewnot to at the same time I already knew that I needed to stay away from her I knew she'd be killed if she was ever to be with me I'm cursed I fully believe that I would never risk it I would never risk anything happening to her that would mean I lost her completely

Trouble is, she was almost killed without me

Willow is s ahazel eyes, those long legs, bubble butt, perfect pert tits – yeah, I've looked, any man with eyes can't help but look at her – drive me crazy

I started noticing her when she reached the age of eighteen Her body seeht She walked into the clubhouse one day wearing the ht, white cocktail dress Every curve of her body was emphasized My fuckin' jaw dropped I'd never seen her look so beautiful

She was there to see her dad, our Prez, Shepard Fuck knohat for, I didn't hang around long enough to find out

Now, I could say I went out and fucked so in the clubhouse that day It wasn't the case I wanted Willow, not a fake iym and beat the frustration and want out of me

I couldn't approach her, tell her how she made me feel, Shepard would have killed me Simple He would have killed anyone of us who dared so hter that way What father wouldn't? Sure, he's a proud biker He also knohat a biker is like Most of thesethat moves, and that included me once upon a time

Not every man just wants to fuck a woman and walk away, but most do I'd be a liar if I said they didn't If they don't have a girlfriend or wife, who's to say they shouldn't fuck whoever they want?

But Shepard rightly wanted more than that for Willow I couldn't fault him for it So I stayed away from her

A couple of years later, I ain, and she was soon the only woman I wanted Hadn't seen Cindy in years, not since her sister's wedding She was too young for e as Willow Eighteen at the time But I had Willow on my mind back then, I didn't even look at Cindy, to be honest But the day she carabbed my attention and kept it until the day she died

People often told et laid, move on But I never did Hell, I haven't fucked anyone since Cindy was killed Probably sounds crazy for a biker when fuckin' is e do, as But I can't even look at another wo on Cindy

I guess that's what I didn't understand When it ca on Cindy I would hear her voice inme, “It's okay to move on, handsome It's okay to love Willow She loves you Believe me, she has always loved you”

I knew that I've always known that Even when I fell for Cindy because I did fall for her Shit, I feel so hard for her I knew Willow loved irl She never s for me back then

I asked myself a couple times why I never fell for her in return Why she never came to me and told me directly how she felt I just put it down to the fact Shepard would never have allowed our pairing He would never have allowed me to claim her

Willow never held any ill-will toward Cindy because she ithbut supportive Not a malicious bone in her beautiful body She was that kind of friend

I try not to question it, I believe God has a plan for us all, and his plan for iven her to ave her to me and then took her away because my destiny is Willow But I refuse to believe it I refuse to be anything to that girl but a friend

As I watch her sleeping, covered in bandages from her neck to her wrists due to the injuries inflicted upon her because of those motherfuckers who took her, I know I can't even be that to her now It's true, I love her in h to walk away I'll always be there for her, in the background,sure she's okay, and I'll ets near her again I'll kill anyone who tries to hurt her Oh, trust me, I'll kill them in the worst fuckin' way!

I don't knohere the hell I go from here I don't even know yet if Willoill ever recover fro, she'll pull herself back fro else but to keep her fros to me

I've spoken to her for a few moments today, day three of her recovery She can't speak, her throat needs to heal But she reached out her hand to me as tears strea to hide my own emotions from her It killed me to see her like that So pale and so withdrawn

She fell asleep quickly, but Shepard told me that she does that a lot All the painkillers keep her drowsy It's better for her if she sleeps She'll heal quicker if she does I should have left by now, I shouldn't be in this room alone with her I didn't think my heart could possibly break anymore, but it's completely shattered now But I didn't lose her co to survive