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Reaches the botto back up When it reaches the top, I perforain

I do this as I pace back and forth across ht’s been theof my entire life

My team pulled out a spectacular win to launch us into the Cup finals The fucking high in that moment was incredible

I proposed tothe same for me that I was for her She turned me down flat, and I ca when it came to Willow Monahan Fuck her and her risk aversion

I left her in the owner’s box, and I didn’t look back As I made the journey down to the ice, surrounded by team executives and two State troopers, I told ain to put her out of my mind Noas lory that caht battle

But I couldn’t

Couldn’t fucking put Willow out of my head

My entire body seeer, tempered only by an internal hollowness over how quickly I’d fallen froh

Not once during all the times I’d replayed that moment when I’d asked her to ret asking I’ut

And athered that energy, and hoped to fuck I portrayed it in just the right way that she couldn’t say no

Without any doubts, I kneas in love with Willow, and I was ready to co her

I do find fault with ht she felt the sa her family into our circle and the way she stood by my side as a partner when I invited the team over The e s, but both filled with trust and deep intimacy that has never felt this way to me before

Our conversations We can talk for hours, and she knows me better than anyone

I thought I knew her better than anyone, but that’s soate myself over

I continue to flip the yo-yo as I pace the length of the rooht me how tomy parents’ deaths When I went off into foster care, it was the one object I et stolen in foster or group homes, and I was small and easily preyed on when I first arrived But I could always keep the yo-yo init when I needed to think