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Lunches with my mother are awful, and I knoill mean a bad day for me

So today, all of that happened, and it was bad

But then it got a fuck of a lot worse

My uncle Luke showed up, apparently dining in the saMy entire body recoiled before he could touchon him I claimed a sudden headache and fled to the bathrooh, he would leave

And he did

And then I did

I headed straight ho and got onthat I kneould fix me and make it better

I contacted One Night Only, and I set up a "date" with souy I picked at random I didn't care what his na his cock was All I cared about was that he could meet me in a hotel within the hour and let me fuck away my misery

So I did

I fucked him spectacularly, and I had a few et all about my horrid day and let pleasure fill me up I sucked it all up, deain

And now I'm home and I just wanted you to know that , I fixed it the only way I kno

I hope you forgive me

Love,

Macy

Chapter 9

"You look like hell, Cal," Janis says to me orried eyes

"Feel like hell," I es she hands me I had just meandered into her office, more than two hours late for work

Not that I have set hours, since I own the firm, but I usually arrive to work before anyone else When I'm late, there's usually cause for worry

I know my eyes are bloodshot She can probably sh I stood in the shower for al to make myself wake up

And that's all because I got shit-faced, stinking drunk last night It's what guys do, apparently, when they break a woman's heart

And that's apparently what I did to Caht when I ended it with her after another week of giving it my all

Things just weren't working out between us, and God knows, I think both of us really tried Things had settled down and conversation was co coain She didn't annoy me as much

What is annoying me, however, is myself I'm annoyed with myself because when it boils down to it, I can't commit fully to Camille because I apparently still have Macy on the brain And I can't fucking get rid of it

Any tiressed too I' theabout a s I want to do to her now And I think about Macy even when I's I'ly smart, rich woman so closed off from relationships? Why does she bounce from bed to bed? And more importantly, what is it about me thatthere? A insane?

It's bordering on a sick obsession, and the one thing I do know this isn't fair to Ca her believe that I'ht, I went to her aparts off with her She cried for three hours straight while I tried to console her She's riddled with guilt because she thinks the reason I can't coo I totally didn't have the heart or the balls to tell her it's because I think another woe and she enslaves my dick as well

After I left her apartment, I went back to my own and downed several vodka tonics I'uilt, so I let the vice of alcohol nu because I feel like total shit, and I have to attend a deposition this afternoon

Leaving Janis' office, I head to the break room and make myself a cup of coffee I down it while I stand at the counter, flipping through the stack ofmyself another cup of coffee, I head to my office

My ot a headache that won't go away and nausea gurgling in er ale by lunchtime, and have Janis run out to pick me up a sub that I'm only able to eat about three bites of before I feel like I' to hurl

That's it I' forever

And then I snicker to myself, because man if I had a quarter for every tie and partying my ass off, I'd be a rich man

A knock onknuckles When I look up, I try to srimace

"Are you hungover?" she asks as she walks in and sits down in a chair opposite my desk

She's looking particularly stunning today with her black hair pulled back into a severe bun that highlights the gorgeous curves and angles of her face