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I think my head may seriously be fucked up

Otherwise ould I be sitting on this train, seriously conte e to pull her to hts?

Watching her now, she's completely oblivious to how I feel I've tried to be very careful with s, which have morphed from concerned bystander, to over-protective friend, to so more than to immerse myself in her body

No, that's not exactly right I mean--I do want her Badly I jerked off in the shower thinking about her thisdown onall around us

But it's more than that So much more

I thought Roas brought into my life because she was broken and needed fixed I know that is exactly why I offered her help, why I openedto make up for all the ways in which I failed Marney There is no way I can ever completely atone for that, but my warped sense of justice makes me try to add up all the checks in the "Flynn Does So even

That's what I thought about Rowan--at first But over the past three days, I'

She's not broken Not in the slightest

Oh, she's dinged up a bit And she's clearly been through things that have daed her But whatever has happened in her past, it has created a person that is strong and independent She's not broken--she's just a bit hard

And now I' her up

The past three days, we have settled into an easy friendship She's actually lightened up, and our relationship just feels natural Unfortunately, this has ht Rowan into my life, and look toward circumstances that may keep her there

She intrigues me and I want to know more about her

I have to know more about her

"Why are you staring at me like that?"

Forcing ray eyes are pinningas we come to our stop and the train rocks to a standstill

We stand up and exit the train, stepping out onto the crowded platforhts, the neighborhood where Roorked, I follow her up and out of one of the many subway stations that coen Street and walks swiftly

"Zeke's is just a few blocks this way," she says

"Let'sin places that he could find you"

"No need to tellmemory for me"

"How long did you work there?"

Rowan shrugs her shoulders "Maybe nine months? It's just one bar on a list of uess it's all I'ood at"

"That's bullshit," I tell her

She looks over atsood at, Flynn"

"What about dogs? You're awesome with Capone Look hoell trained and behaved he is You're like a dog whisperer or so"

Her head swings back toward me, and she searches nize fro the truth, and she believes the eyes are the gateway to the soul or so

Nowith the fleabag

Whatever she sees reflected back to her causes her cheeks to turn red She turns quickly away from me, but not before I see a satisfied expression on her face

It makes me feel invincible that I put it there

She rounds the corner of a building and we stop in front of Zeke's Bar It's an unassu place, nestled in between a sn over the door has seen better days, and the s are a tad grin beckons us in, and Rowan doesn't hesitate

As we step inside, loomy atmosphere The place is completely empty and had the door not been unlocked, I would think it was closed