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Cillian is taking me away for the weekend He actually asked me if I would take a few days off from The Hibernian, rather than demand it of me And there was no way I could say no Not after what he shared with ht when he told me all about his painful past

His revelations have ledof what drives hih I won't always bow to it I also get why the situation with Maeve is so difficult Cillian has a greater understanding as to the depths of hell an alcoholic can journey to He has a need to help Maeve through this that I can now appreciate on a new level

It doesn't make me like her anymore, but at least I have a better awareness as to where Cillian is co from I vow that I will do whatever I need to do to support him

I take lance at hi, with a pair of Ray Ban Aviators perched on his nose His hair is all stylishly s My heart swells and I think about the fact that Iin love with this man

It started happening the night he told rief for hioodness inside I wanted to hold him, to stroke his over and over again until I banished all of the tragedy fros to remember

When my tears had dried, I kissed him Hotly, passionately I crawled on top of him and pushed him backward on to the bed I kissed, nibbled and licked all over his body, causing his hips to jerk off the bed in rapture I took the lead and stripped his boxers off, pulling et to the condoms in my bedside table and with calth I loweredin the way his eyes closed and his fingers dug intoto pour every bit of comfort I could into my actions I looked hiaze wander, even when he closed his eyes as he climaxed

He pulled"cailin alainn " over and over again until we fell asleep

I step out on the porch of Cillian's shterard We've only been here a few hours and already I feel relaxed and peaceful The first thing we did e got here was break in his bed

We had stepped out of the car and he walked over to me He hauled me over his shoulder, rinned at me like a devil the entire time he had his ith hter and brighter every time I called out his name

We had collapsed onto the bed in a big pile of heaving chests and entwined li about life It was a perfect start to our weekend holiday

Cillian steps out onto the porch behind me and takes my hand "Want to take a walk?"

I shakelazy and for someone orks on her feet all the ti"

He laughs atout"

We sit in the side-by-side wicker chairs, and gaze out over his front yard

"Did you do all of this landscaping?" I ask, soaking in the beauty of the English cottage gardens

Cillian snorts "Fuck no I'd kill a plant if I looked at it for too long The couple I bought the house from did all of this and I pay someone to maintain it It's nice, huh?"

"Nice? It's gorgeous So many colors It must make you happy to have this"

He looks over at ht I was happy to buy it, to have son of my success But no, I've not been truly happy I had this until I had you sitting on my front porch with me"

I s hard over the luh my chest, in a deliciously painful way It tellsI've never felt before Never even came close to it with Cormac

And I realize, with sudden clarity, that I have no roos that had happened to me with Cormac I couldn't let his actions rule my life, nor could I make decisions based on what had been done to me Clearly, my "formula" for the perfect relationship was fucked up, and as I look over at Cillian, I understand that there is no formula

There's only Cillian

Standing up, I walk to hiainst his, I sink ers into the hair on the back of his head "You overwhelmme, okay?"

His shts from within and he nods "Okay"

Then he kissesunique happens Whereas there is norhtoquality to the feeling he is invoking It's like two halves being made whole I feel a completeness