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As I get out of the cab at o after s I want, and to not let anyone stand in my way

That is daood advice

Rather than going up to et in my car and decide to head across the river

I knock on the door to Linc's apartment I have no idea if Nix is even here, and if he is, I have no idea what I' to say to hi on between us Clearly, there is an insane ive me a better reason e shouldn't act on it

My father said to go get what I wanted and I want Nix Caldwell And I don't feel the slightest bit trashy for it This is all part ofthat I believe I can learn from Nix

And I'et hi No, there is soot ues the hell out of me I know he says he's not relationshipfor a relationship, but Nix has experiences and wisdoure him out I want to learn from him

And if we have sex along the waythat would be great too

The door swings open and Nix is standing there He's clearly surprised to see me and an array of e hot flares in his eyes, then it switches to wariness, then--if I'er

Just great He's pissed off that I showed up

Instead of telling rabs my hand and pulls me into the apartment

"What's wrong?" he asks His voice is laced orry, which catches uard

Can't he just think I ht want to come over to seduce him?

"What rumble

"Because you've clearly been crying," he says gently

Oh!

Now I' over here I was going to go after what I wanted, just like h I'o after a man when he told me that Still, the principle of his advice is solid

And now I don't knohat to say So I just stand there like an idiot

"E?"

"U Just a little run in with my mother"

Still holding my hand, Nix leads e, pulling out a bottle of white wine He pulls down a glass fro it to me, he says, "What happened?"

I didn't coet sidetracked from my mission After a small sip of the wine--which is delicious by the way--I look Nix in the eye "I want to resu sex"

"What the fuck, Emily?" Nix literally steps away fro?"

"What? No, that's not why I was crying I was crying for so else that I don't want to talk about I want to talk about sex"

Nix is staring at me as if my head is on fire A combination of horror and odd curiosity "You want to talk about sex?"

"Yes"

"I don't understand"

I blow out a pent up breath of frustration "Are you purposely being obtuse?"

Nix doesn't answer but reaches in the fridge and pulls out a beer He twists the cap off and throws it in the sink He takes a long s and just stares at

Finally, he says, "There's nothing to talk about We are not having sex"

"Now you're just being stubborn," I uys want to have sex"

The corners of hisI clearly need to change tactics because I was hoping he would findand sexy

What to do?