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That wasn’t the biggest probleh She tried and failed to hide it Zoe still looked sad, and I wondered what the reason for it was

She says she loves me too, but does she actually mean that?

I wondered, but didn’t dare ask, because ould I do if she actually told me no?

Chapter Twelve

Zoe

I left ho before Dad and Katie woke up, because it would be too aard to see the, and they both seemed happy with the current situation, which just made it worse forit even withto be comfortable with that

I really need to move out Should I look into other teams to apply to?

This was soht into I was sure I could get used to it, but I wasn’t sure I wanted to Still, it wasn’t like I was needed in the house anymore

Money was a proble a problem When Mom passed away, she’d left soh to live on, but I could get an apartment and settle in for a few months, but no more Still, I could have o, but the real reason I didn’t uilty about leaving Dad alone He could function by himself, but I worried

The entire time I ay from home, he’d eat out and called for take out a few ti service that came a few times each week to clean the house, do the dishes and laundry When I came back, the house looked fine, it just didn’t seee, all I could find was beer Dad left early in the uys live pretty ht anyone home He had his work, and friends, and of course he focused a lot on the team

Essentially, though, he was alone

Now, he wasn’t Before, I used to be the one to cook, or Dad would just go and eat out, but now Katie had taken over the kitchen I wasn’t even allowed to try and cook anything anye ood, too, as good as Howard’s

When I thought of it like that, I couldn’t bring h I was the one to tell hi, like I was doing so bad, and I didn’t kno to face either of our parents That ere living in the same house only made it worse

Maybe I should take Howard up on his offer to move in with him

That would have to be a last resort

“What aroaned to myself

Even though I left the house early, I didn’t actually have anything to do or anywhere to go, so I decided to go check out how the guys were doing They shouldn’t have practice today, but I knew so They were all pretty dedicated to the sport, to the point I wondered if most of them had social lives outside of football

I stepped into the building and hadn’t had the chance to look for anyone when someone called to me I looked up to see Lily, one of the staff that worked in the teahter, and I was always here anyway, I knew most of the staff about as much as I knew the team