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Because he’s leaving New York

He’s leaving meLukeTears fall down Ava’s cheeks, and I feel like soht the fuck out ofher is abhorrent It is the very last thing I ever want to do, but fuck, even if it wasn’t intentional, that’s exactly what I’ve done I’ve hurt her

All throughout our friendship, trust and honesty and communication have always been at the foundation And what I’ve done, keeping this a secret froainst all that

“Ava, I’ her arround

“Why did you hide that fro sht crack in half “I know I’ve even asked you since then if you’ve heard anything, and you straight up lied to me”

She’s right

“I know I did, and I never should’ve done that,” I answer, silently wishing I could wrap her up in my ar, she looks like she wants to run out of this room and away froet the words out”

She goes quiet for the longesther tiest all this, to process her emotions

“And nohat?” she eventually questions “Noe go back to New York, and in mere days, you leave for Houston, and then…? That’s it? We’re done?”

Done? Fuck, that’s not what I want at all

But ht thing to do

Ava’s whole life, her career, is in New York The whole reason shean artist

So, because of ive up on hers?

I’m supposed to ask her to just move to Houston with me?

That feels so wrong, it’s not even funny

“I…” I pause, trying to find the right words to express how I feel But , it only hurts her more

“I feel like you’ve strunglove with you, and then you’re just going to up and leave Just fucking walk away”

“Ava, I’ve fallen for you too,” I whisper “And trust me, that’s not what I want”

“Trust you? That feels like a very hard thing to do right now, Luke,” she says angrily “And if that’s not what you want, what do you want? Because, I’ll be honest, it’s all pretty fucking hard to understand right now”

She’s so worked up Too worked up