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I feel great Accomplished Proud And I also feel the closest I’ve felt to winding up the Inspector Gadget phone and getting the leader of the Cat Crips on the line since I was four years old

I need street-tough stray kittens, and I need them now

I know the whole reason I’ new and terrifying is because ot me into Columbia

But it’s not uncole with self-deprecation

Take van Gogh, for exa ear

I don’t think that was the result of internal criticisles, and I can’t think of a better example

Probably because most artists internalize any toxic eans rot rather than acknowledge that the thing that sustains the them because there’s so much pressure to do better and be better with every creation

I can totally i in poverty all his life while struggling to connect his art with theoff my ear”

And then he freaking dies, and that’s when everyone coreat he is

No doubt, I have to get overthe better end of the struggle deal I have both ofedone

I open the lastbox and pull out a plethora of randomness—half-filled sketchbooks, a coffee cup full of pens, paintbrushes, a few blank canvases, picture fraer sisters, Kate and E of assorted makeup that I’m pretty sure has reached its expiration date, and a pair of dusty old flip-flops that look like they’ve seen better days

Truthfully, ht as well be my middle name I sit on the queen’s throne of “just toss all et this show on the road”

I glance out theof my new dored

Yesterday, I moved froest, most populated cities in the world—New York And toe

Instead of suburban landscapes, I see skyscrapers and taxicabs and sidewalks filled with people Instead of one coffee shop within a twenty-mile radius, there’re at least twenty coffee shops within three blocks of me