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We had talked about going out to dinner with Lynn and Harry, both of ith us at The Cara Peterson Show, but I just didn’t have it in ed tothing I’d done in a long time

It wasn’t so hard letting the lies cohtforward and based so much in truth because of hoe reconnected that at least it felt realistic

The hard part was sitting there with Kynan’s arainstsupportive and nurturing He’d issued a challenge to ht in the camera and threatened him—and Cara and the audience practically swooned

The worst part was how genuine Kynan sounded Cara was so taken with his British accent and his alpha-protective char the interview It became The Kynan McGrath Show, and the enuine when he told her how deeply he loved me all these years and how he had never been able to move on

He was smooth when Cara asked him e’d broken up He waved it off to youth and stupidity and left it at that

Kynan kissedrooer to put the entire thing behind , … could we have so?

Yeah… my head was a mess and I was tired, so I declined dinner with Lynn and Harry Instead, I opted for my favorite pizza Kynan was quiet as he normally tends to be, but he still held my hand the entire way out of the studio and to my car since he’d driven us to the studio in it

He opened the passenger door for me, but before I could slide in, he put his hand around the nape ofto reat, Joslyn I think we set the trap”

His face was so close to mine With his eyes like war to kiss me for real

But he didn’t

He et in

Now, et out of these booties because while they look killer, they are torture onto re with e on pizza and wine I will hopefully drink enough I can fall into a catatonic sleep instead of playing every nuance of Kynan’s words and actions over and over again

In my bedroom, I head toand shoes on the peri square dresser with a granite top that holdsonto a sroan asI sit there ato the Cara Peterson interview and the kind and loving things Kynan had said about me

Lies, right?

With a sigh, I force , so I res—and put them all back in their proper places

My eye catches on a blue sapphire ring nestled in a velvet trough in one of the drawers It’s huge, eht it for o I doubt I’ve worn in three times since

I slide it onto the ring finger on my left hand Cara Peterson had hounded Kynan once he announced ere engaged over the fact I hadn’t been wearing an engage Cara I had chosen not to wear it until we had officially announced our engage, I’d have to put it on

This would work

I holdfacets, and hate the deep pit of longing within the middle of my stomach I want this for myself—not for it to be a sham

And not necessarily with Kynan, although I suspect that s It had occurred to me recently I’ve shied away from relationships Lynn called ht was a betrayal by the man I loved had warped the way I viewed the possibility of true love