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“Not at all” I shook my head and touched the side of his face “What happened?”
“My parents died in a car crash and ; at least not without a set of rules”
“Like you getting married?”
“Yes” He sighed “I resisted as long as I could and I tried to use my own money, but my trust is tied up in so many ways and there are restrictions on how I can use the money I don’t have full access to it until I’m 35”
“Oh ”
“So I finally said, fuck it If I need to be et married And then your sister needed a husband So we caement It seemed smart It sees to co messy”
“That’s good” I looked down, trying not to show hiain
“I really like you, Liv” His fingers grabbed my chin and he made me look at him “But I don’t even know you, you know I don’t understand why or how I could feel so close to you Or how I could uy A resourceful guy, but I don’t do relationships or es They’re not to be trusted”
“I understand”
“Do you really?” His eyes searched mine
“Yes” I leaned forward and gave hiht kiss “I understand Xander”
“I can’t just let this craziness between us change everything I can’t let my emotions influence this decision” He sounded as if he were trying to convince both of us
“You need to do what you need to do” I pulled back slightly and blinked rapidly I would not let myself cry in front of him
“Will you spend the night with me?” He asked softly “We don’t have to have sex I just want to hold you in my arms I just want to feel your heart beat next to mine I just want to wake up with you still there next to me”
“No, sorry” I shook my head and stood up slowly “I’m sorry, Xander, but like I told you before, I’ why you’reYou’re still her fiancé and she is still my sister and I’m still me And I don’t want to be the other wohtenedto remember the look of hurt on his face I was pretty sure I’d never see this side of hiuy Good night” I said and nodded my head and walked back across the lawn and into the house Don’t trip, don’t trip was all I could think as I hurried away fro down my face
Chapter Ten
“Do you think your parents are going to be pissed?” Alice asked
“Nah, they most probably won’t even notice we aren’t there” I lied
“I’hed “I’ve got a splitting headache”
“Me too” I sighed and rubbed my forehead “I didn’t want to deal with any of the”