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I stare at myself in the mirror, and suddenly unable to stand the reflection of lass fall and cut into my skin, but I don’t care I want it to hurt I want to feel the pain It’s only a fraction of the pain I have inflicted on those I love the most

“FUUUUUUUUCK!!!” I yell into the e to , feeding off the hatred I feel towardsa fuck that it hurts like hell I deserve it

I hear ain, but I don’t look up The way the hair stand up on my arms and my nape indicates that it’s Hayley Even when I’ mess, my hands covered in blood and my face ith tears, my body still responds to her presence But I don’t want her here I don’t want her to seeto I always knew breaking her heart was an inevitability, but I had hoped it would be a little while longer before I tore it to pieces

“Oh my God, Cameron Are you okay?”

She kneels down next to me and tries to reach for my injured hands but I don’t let her

“Let et you cleaned up,” she says Her eyes are still red, and I hate irl But it’s for the best She’s better off without me

“No,” I grind through er “You need to leave, Hayley Now”

Her eyebrows dip in confusion and I can see the wheels turning in her head “I’ anywhere”

“LEAVE!” I yell “JUST FUCKING LEAVE, HAYLEY, I DON’T WANT YOU HERE”

I choke back a sob because the way she looks atht now

“Why?” Tears streale between my heart and my head becoht and breathe her in until I feel okay But I also want to push her away and protect her from what I am God please, don’t let me destroy her Please, God, please

“Because I don’t want you here, Hayley!”

She flinches, her eyes searching my face for only she knohat “But I love you, Cam”

Her eyes widen with her ad in htens I love you, too, I want to say, but I don’t Instead I scowl andit over and over like a et this over with now than e are in too deep