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“Did you pack your new lingerie?” Taylor asks fro down, and feel roarm When I told Hannah and Taylor, who have also becoht, they both draggedfor new underwear and lingerie Much to ot ho bra and panty sets had to be showcased It was the first tirandmother had seen me in my underwear after I had Ari, and it made me feel self-conscious Somehow, Hannah and Taylor both made me feel at ease about it, however it has been short-lived since I’ht now

“Ca to f-r-e-a-k when he sees you in that black baby doll nightie,” Hannah throws in So not helping my need to throw up, I think to myself

“He’s not going to be able to keep his hands to hi a look with Hannah Bitches None of this is helping I’m still so damn nervous

“How do I even know it’ll happen tonight?” I ask quietly “What if it’s too soon? Don’t you think I’ into this?”

Hannah turnsme her are you serious? look

“It doesn’t have to happen tonight,” she says “But if it feels right, then let it happen, Hayls”

“But I’m nervous It’s the first time I’ll be with someone like that after…” my words trail off I don’t need to explain further because Hannah and Taylor both know everything about my past, even a little more than Cauilty but that’s soht now I have asex with Cameron for the first time and I’m terrified Not because I think it’ll suck, but because I’ve never opened myself up so entirely, both physically and eh school, when I used to distract uys all the tiot my emotions involved Until now

“Sweetheart, trustover to where Hannah and I are standing “But Hannah is right If it feels right, then ti isn’t important What’s important is that it’s what you both want”

“And I can tell you, in complete honesty, that Caht, but he’ll never force you to do anything you don’t want to,” Hannah adds

“He’s nervous too?” I squeak

Hannah chuckles “Yes, he is He spoke to Noah, and I happened to overhear”

I sigh, feeling uess we’ll have to see how it all goes”

“And please,” Taylor pipes up, zipping“If you’re about to, you know, please think about those of us who are going through a dry spell, alright? Do it for those of us who aren’t gettin’ any!”

That’s all it takes for the three of us to burst into a fit of laughter My nerves subside slightly until randmother knocks on my door

“Come in, Gama,” I call out

The door opens and Ari walks in, followed by Macy and randmother Ari comes over to me and throws her arrandmother

“You look lovely, sweetheart,” she says s downstairs And don’t worry, I strip searched hihs at my expression I always knew this woman was batshit crazy but God, I love her

“I’ll be down in a minute,” I tell her

She closes irls will survive a night alone with ht here tonight and looking after Ari while I’m with Cameron