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I went through the day within circles, and I was short with Drehen he askednored Adria, completely pretended like she didn’t exist when she tried to talk to n that had happened, it was the big fat F ondown If I hadn’t caught the vindictive glea issues weighingrash This was one antuan pile that I needed to work on finding a fix for On the other hand, if I had to drop out of school to get another job, failing this class and tanking my GPA wouldn’t matter one way or the other

I dodged Drew and even skipped out on coffee with Dovie so I could go straight to work and not have to interact with anyone I wasn’t really fit company for civilized people at the iving me sideways looks, and finally when the shift was over, he cornered lossed-over version of as going on I didn’t tell hio intoand holding on to everything I was feeling until it felt like it was just too much

I let hiht back tears He kissedwould be all right That wasn’t really a possibility, and because I knew it, it made ot that creepy feeling like soain, and er in the parking lot

“What about the car?”

I looked at Ramon and frowned “What about my car?”

He shrugged a little “It’s a nice ride, worth some money If you’re really desperate you could sell it”

I looked at the BMW and then back at him “I still owe on it”

“Doesn’t matter BMWs are classic Rich people alant them Get rid of it, pay the loan off, and then use the rest of the cash to get you and your sister situated Then you don’t have to worry about the payment and you have a cushion to land on Flimsy as it may be”

Ugh It made perfect sense and I hated it I loved my car It really did feel like my last tie to independence

“That still doesn’t helpto do about money for my mom”

He bent and kissed me on the cheek and ushered rown-ass adults It’s not your job to take care of them It was their job to take care of you and they are absolutely awful at it You have tooto save anyone else but you and Karsen at this point”

Maybe that was true, but I didn’t kno to let it go after holding on to it all so tightly for so long

I didn’t want to go home, but I wasn’t ready to talk to Race yet either Not that he had reached out to me I wasn’t sure e had to say to each other, and I hated that things felt so unfinished and unsatisfying between the two of us I needed to honestly figure out if Race and all the things that cas I could deal with I wasn’t lying when I told hiht he ruined lives The only thing that keptable to totally walk aas that I could see that even though he knehat I said was true, he took no pleasure in doing what he did To hi the Point needed to have in order to keep fro itself

Tuesday was ht, and it hadto curl up next to a hard, warainst ure out the rest of my unsteady life Karsen told me I looked like crap, and it took twice as much effort to avoid Adria and blow off Drew than it had the day before It was bad enough that I actually conte the root of everything wrong at the ured that would be a bad idea

By thein circles I was going to sell the BMW I was going to drop the Math Theory class, even if itto call Race after s happen around me, I needed to take control of ht up withto apologize for being so short with him over the last few days, when I was surprised by the professor interrupting us