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Or I could try to talk to her At least let her knoas open to having a conversation if she was It was possible she just didn’t want to be the one to broach the subject I thought about this through the end of the ot under the covers and sent off a fast text to her

Do we need to talk?

II probably wouldn’t hear back fro But before e from her

No

That was it Just a si if not final, and that only made me hate myself even more

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Merry

Somehow despite all my promises to myself, all my contemplation about what happened and resolutions in h of an adult to handle whatever feelings were happening inside ain I had made another mistake Only this time, it was exponentially worse Worse because I should have learned from the first time I made it And worse because of how it happened Sex outside, in the middle of the day, on work property Not even in the privacy of an office Just right out in the open next to the pond where anybody could have stu because of ere doing, but because of what it said about us About me What kind of woman had that little control over herself? What kind of woman couldn’t deal with inconvenient attraction the way a nor it wasn’t there?

Or maybe that’s not the way a normal adult would handle it at all, because people didn’t end up for in to theht Quentin probably thought I’d gone right back to work as soon as ere done I wouldn’t really expect hi that’s what I told hiht to the parking lot and I drove hoot back to the apartment and told hi rong and said he would just get a rideshare I spent the rest of the day curled up on et to this place

Several ti about whether or not I should contact Quentin On the other hand, I had no idea what I would say to hi, so how could I possibly express it to him? That was a conversation I didn’t want to face, especially not now So, when I got a text fro if we needed to talk, I simply told him no He didn’t push, didn’t insist Finally, I felt like we could drop it

Unfortunately for me andsure I was doing a good job and being a benefit to the company Quentin had been extreainst fraternization and my job wasn’t at risk, but I’d been in the professional sphere long enough to know just because there wasn’t a rule against soo ahead and do it I didn’t want to look like I was slacking off or beco complacent I didn’t want it to fuel any ru extra perks on the job because of some relationship with him So, I tucked my head down and dedicated ot to work early and left late, worked harder than I ever had And very purposely avoided working with Quentin alone at any time

But Minnie wasn’t having any of the pretending As far as I was concerned, no mention of any relationship between Quentin and I needed to see the light of day ever again She didn’t agree Just a week after Quentin and I had sex again, she came to my office to talk At first, she said it was just to check in But considering in all the time I’d worked at the company she hadn’t stopped byto her, I kneasn’t just toup our Twitter followers She wanted to check in with me about Quentin and the stories she’d heard