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Before the accident, I would’ve been scared witless of fluid inor half breath was a harbinger of death I’d be Googling the symptoms nonstop
Now?
II just didn’t care
As I shuffled down the hall, I thought about how a blood clot would be quick Wouldn’t it? Like the very second it broke loose, it would be over
Just like the an and Chris and Phillip There one second, and gone in the next heartbeat
Lori would be heading back to Radford that weekend, since Dr Arnold was pretty positive I’d be released on Sunday, Monday by the latest
Life would go back to normal for the most part
But it wouldn’t
Life would never be normal
Moan’s funeral
“It was lovely, the way they handled it with her and Chris” She’d paused “When you’re ready, we can visit their resting place”
That was all she’d said about it
Now she was sitting in the chair by theThe glass was spotted, like it hadn’t been cleaned in a while, and for some reason I was fascinated by that It was a hospital How could there be dead flies on the sills?
Moot into the car After the outburst in the ICU, she was a pillar of strength Blond hair sa pants defuzzed The swelling in her eyes hadn’t gone down, though, and I had this sinking suspicion when she drove home or when I slept, she let the control crack
She was crying a lot
Like she had in the months after Dad had left us
“I checked in with the school on the way here,” she told“They’re aware that you won’t be starting until the third week” She shoved the et back to it”
I didn’t care about going to school Hoas I supposed to care about that when Megan wasn’t going back? When Cody and Phillip and Chris were also gone? Nothing about that seemed fair
Nothing about the accident was
Like howhow did I survive? Because out of everyone, it shouldn’t have been me
“The teachers have been a work I believe Sebastian will be bringing it over to the house tomorrow”
Sebastian
How could I see hiain?
How could I see Abbi or Dary again, because I knew I reotten in the car I shouldn’t have let Megan I should’ve—
Shifting inand blinked rapidly Wetness gathered in my eyes Hoas I supposed to walk into that school when everyone else was dead? When Megan wouldn’t be waiting at my locker forme my weekly Friday lecture in the most obnoxious way possible?
When I didn’t answer, Moht for me They sat on the little stand “Have you already read therab the ones you haven’t read”
I hadn’t touched the pile of books I wasn’t sure if I’d read the in a shallow breath, I focused on the TV Mom had turned it on a national news channel “The books are fine”
Mo minute “You’re able to have visitors now I know—”
“I don’t want visitors”
Mom frowned “Lena”
“I don’t wantanyone here,” I repeated
“Lena, I know Abbi and Dary are planning to co her voice low “They’ve been waiting until—”