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Nan scoffed as my mom looked at me sadly

“Just because your body was so worn down that you’ve slept without nightone,” Nan said flatly,that happened when I was younger than you Those don’t just go away, Trix”

“I just want to feel likeup from the table “I feel normal when I’m here!”

“Oh, baloney,” ain “You’re not yourself! You can’t be—not after all that’s happened Hell, Trix I don’t know that any of us will ever be the sa on the ledge of a very high cliff”

“But what if—”

“No,” Mo me off “No more ‘what-ifs’ Do you love Cam?”

I closed my eyes and braced my hands on the table in front ofin the world I was just so scared

“Yes,” I finally rasped

“He’s a good man, Bellatrix” Mom’s voice was low and serious “I know that you’re afraid I even understand it, baby But you’re throwing away soood And for what? Fear? I didn’t raise you to be a coward”

I lifted my hands and buried my face in my palms as the first sob was torn fro, I couldn’t stop I curled forward as I sucked in a desperate breath of air, and ed as my mom’s thin arms wrapped around my frame

“I don’t knohat to do,” I cried “I messed up so bad, Mama”

“It’ll be okay, baby Shhh,” she soothed

“What if he doesn’t forgive ’s different now? What if he turns into a monster?”

“If any of that was going to happen, you wouldn’t have already loved hi up to swipe a hand down the back of ether, because ere supposed to leave for your doctor’s appointo”

“Shit!” Mo her face with her hands

“Shall we take a look?” the ultrasound tech asked, lubing up a huge dildo-looking thing

My eyes widened and led behind my head

“This isn’t funny,” I growled, glancing over to where Nan was sitting in a chair