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I paced around the quiet living rooure out what to do I hated that Ca with hi thatin my stomach every time we’d crossed paths the past four years and I wouldn’t look at him, but that had been pure self-preservation Even then, it had hurt me to hurt him
I let Cam sleep for almost an hour before I couldn’t stand it anymore and finally made my decision
“What’re you doin’?” Caily as I slipped into bed beside him
The sheets were cool againsttoward his body when he reached out an arm to pull me close
“I’ainst his chest
“Me, too” He sighed, turning his head to kiss my hair
My whole body seerudge, and I knew if I never brought up our fight again, he wouldn’t, either
“I know you wouldn’t hurt me,” I mumbled past the lump in my throat
“I’ht? I know a lot of men are cool with that and their women look the other way, but I knew from the moment you busted that chick’s face—that would never be us”
“I’m jealous”
“Good”
“I don’t kno to not be jealous I just—this feels like it came out of nowhere, and I’m—”
“Mighta came outta nowhere for you—but it feels like I’ve been waitin’ forever”
“You didn’t act like you aiting,” I said quietly, before snapping my mouth closed
“Bea,” he scolded softly “What was I supposed to do, baby? First you were pissed I was fuckin’ around, but at that time, you were seein’ me in a way that I wasn’t seein’ you Knew you wanted me—didn’t feel the same So I tried to keep that shit quiet, didn’t want to hurt your feelings But you kept pullin’ away, no matter what I did, and after that shit went down at the back of the property when I realized—holy fuck, I’ve got a serious hard on for my best friend and I don’t want her with anyone but me—you wanted nothin’ to do with me”
“That was never true,” I argued softly
“Sure as hell felt true I went from talkin’ to you every day to nothin’”
“I criedhis entire body stiffen “Though that probably had a lot to do with the birth control pills I’d started taking It made me crazy”
Ca me raise my face to his “Why didn’t you come to me?”
“I was ery And then I started seeing you omen, and I couldn’t watch that”