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Derrick

I foundas I walked down the driveith my hands shoved into the pockets of my slacks I can’t remember the last tiht I had a look on my face that I’nize, a look I haven’t worn in way too long to remember

As I got closer to that space between her house and mine, it’s likeeverything back to ether ere young All the things that I’d forgotten and wish I hadn’t

I saw her as the child she was, trailing along behindout into the street after the ball while I yelled at her to stop being stupid even though no one hardly ever drove carelessly in our neighborhood

I remeh with anyone but me, and more I ree That way, she had of thinking things through before speaking, of being precise in her speech when she answered a question, the saotten so much?

The hstood out in particular It was that day, the day that she’d staked her clai that that’s what it was What sane person would put any stock in what an eight-year-old said?

But when I look back at the ere then and where we are now, it’s al in other directions Like wondering what it would be like to know soave up hope in it Never wavered fro

What would it have been like if I were the one who held onto that love for her and had to watch her go off and have a whole other life away frout Dauilt?

It’s strange how things change when you’re in love The thought of how hurt she must’ve been when I didn’t reothit ut

I’m such a fuck up I don’t deserve that kind of love But I plan to spend the rest ofsure that I’m worthy of it, of her I don’t fully understand truth be told, not how she could’ve known back then or what force brought us back together now, but I wouldn’t have it any other way I gave a quick thought to Lauren and the life we’d had, and I felt al the one I have now more

I shook those thoughts off as I told myself that had she not fucked up, I wouldn’t have cheated on her, wouldn’t have torn our fas that defy reason for me in this whole situation What would’ve happened had we not moved back here?

Would things have still progressed the way they have? Or would our lives have taken a different course? It’s hard to answer those questionsJenny leavesmore desperate than I did when Lauren left

Now I felt alive as the cold winter air brushed againsttiht, beautiful day Suddenly I couldn’t wait to get this night over with so that we could get started on the beginning of the rest of our lives

She s that I’d put aside after the accident all those years ago Things that I taught myself not to want because they didn’t fit into ot closer to ht me back to life

When I reached the botto this shit in this day and age, do people even do stuff like this anymore? Somehow it seems to fit Jenny, for all that she’s a freak in my bed, has that kind of old-world charm about her

She’s the kind of wo care she deserves, like opening doors and pulling out her chair No wonder I thought of putting great-grand her a new one