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That was three and a half weeks ago Noith divorce papers in hand, I can go take care of the other half of this debacle I need to know if there was more to what I felt for Jenny than what I re love to her

I wasn’t about to open myself up to more bullshit, but I knew that I needed to at least irls with mom and dad and headed over to her house I wanted to see her

I’d denied ally out of the picture, but noith the papers in my hand, there was a fire under my ass, and I couldn’t wait

I hadn’t tiht, and she wasn’t hoh schooler, fuck Herto let me in to reminisce I learned quite a bit about Jenny and was reotten

I saw her reflection in the, just stood there listening, I decided to pretend I didn’t see her

Now I’otta know I’ to touch her; I’ve told myself that a thousand times I have too much to make up for first But as soon as I turned and looked at her in her fa forbidden awakened inside me I hope she knohat she’s in for

Jenny

What does he ? As he pulled me into his house and slas; he looked pissed What was he going to accuse me of now?

I’d s for hiain If he lashes out at ht I don’t think I can bear it

We were both breathing hard as I pressed ht next to the door as he towered over me “Why didn’t you tell me what I did to you? Did you think that I remembered and just brushed it off? And if so, why the hell did you come back here after that to watch the kids? Just what the hell is going on in your head?”

I couldn’t speak, I wanted to, but the words seemed locked off insideup at hi that my eyes told the story, that he could find the answers there

I wasn’t prepared; that’s why I’d convinced ht, that I was safe fro what a horrible person I aht; I don’t kno since he was so out of it, but I knehat I was doing even if he didn’t

And the guilt of that has eaten , even after I’ddinner, I’d looked in the mirror and not liked what I saw

I didn’t go into that roo to happen, I didn’t start what happened, but I can’t escape the guilt of loving being with him like that There’s no justification for my actions I felt like no matter what Lauren had done; I’d violated the sanctity of their ht

So, not only was I fighting ht with a sweet feeling coursing throughto deal with the fact that I’d wanted that night to happen, that somehow I feel like I made it happen in some roundabout way, and now his life was ruined

But even as these thoughts ran through my head, my body had other ideas This close, I could sainstso close I bithe couldn’t sense as going on with me I hope to heaven he can’t shs

He lifted his hand tolook on his face as I heard hi ainst his chest astoo fast, and I couldn’t catch my breath

I felt him lift me and take me to the couch “Hey, come on now, open your eyes, don’t scare h with you I didn’t mean it Come on, baby, open your eyes” He pulled me into his chest and rocked me as I tried to tell him that I was okay