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I took a long hot shower to clean the filth I felt crawling all overback there, it’s because I can’t stay away Any opportunity to see hi as I didn’t do anything that everything was fine, but it’s not, and it’s affecting Lauren in a negative way

By the tio back It wasn’t fair to her, to ht be sick, I would be thehoould make her respond

For a while, things were fine It was cooes crazy around that ti in froot sucked in by s

I wouldn’t say that I didn’t think of the easier I just locked off that part of ot through the day It’s only at night when uard, and I’d wake aching and alone

I still felt no guilt about s for Derrick; after all, I had no control over theet I ever met him, that would serve us all well, but that was easier said than done I couldn’t find it in me to throay the best part of my childhood

I was still treatinght of him in a day, what my dreams were like How much my heart had mended that day or if it hadn’t If anyone ever saw this, it would be like cuttingme bleed It was all there

Two days before Thanksgiving, dad and I weretrips back and forth to the airport to pick up our relatives ere coh that every year we host at least ten people and this year was no different

I was just onThe caller ID said private, but I still answered “Hello”

“Hello, Jenny, don’t hang up” My heart beat strangely inme from an unlisted number, but because of the sound in her voice

I’d turned her down three times in the last couple of months when she called and asked me to sit for theht back in, but I always held firm

It had got to the point where I’d even changed my number, and I never went past that house if I could avoid it, soet to one of the other families

I’d even started driving tothe excuse of the cold and the fact that it was usually late by the tiht out I used to enjoy those times

Walking through the sleeping neighborhood that tiht when everyone was in bed It was a co the day when kids were playing outside and cars going back and forth But now that too was gone

I was about to ask her how she got ured that was a stupid question She could’ve easily obtained it from one of the other lected to tell theive it to her, that would’ve caused so for sure

“What can I do for you, Mrs Masters?” The next words out of herup to this point flashed beforehim from the shadows

I felt o weak and then becahit hard to breathe I bypassed , fear, and trepidation dogging my every step

Was I responsible for this? Had I brought this on? No, I couldn’t have, but maybe…

I reached the house and ran through the unlocked door taking the stairs two at a ti in their rooreeak Please don’t let me be too late Derrick will be so devastated