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But since Julia it was all out of his hands, a jumbled up mess inside him

Just like it was for normal, everyday people

So this hat it was like to be nor wheel, hoping the pain on his hand would deaden the pain in his chest

It didn’t work

She was right about hiainst anything that ht happen in the future

But she’d taken the choice from him He was stripped bare Too late for protection, too late to keep hi

He would find it again He had to He would find a way to rebuild the walls that had been around his heart He just needed time away from Julia

And then things could go back to the way they’d been before she walked into his life All he had to do was forget

CHAPTER FOURTEEN

EVERYTHING IN HIS house was hideous Ugly and gaudy, a testa when the house was e to forget for five days It o in thedrunk, but he still hadn’t forgotten

She haunted him His bed was cold His heart was cold It was a cold that ran deep No night on the street had ever felt so bad No stripping of his pride in the bed of a wo quite so sick

Losing Julia showed everything he’d built up in his life for the false facade it was

He had not changed He was still a scared boy with nothing and no one at the end of the day Money hadn’t changed that And it wouldn’t

The only thing that could change was hi about it scared hiht have to deal with the full force of his feelings, feelings from the past twelve years that he’d blunted He’d blocked it all out to avoid the pain

But without it, he would never have her Without emotion, he could never have joy