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The obstetrician looked from Alexis to Raoul

Alexis spoke up in the aard silence that sprang between them “I’m Alexis, Ruby’s nanny”

“I see Well, would you like to coh with me? And Raoul?”

“No, just me,” Alexis said firmly

Raoul wanted to object, to shout he had every right to be there in that room with her, but he knew he had none He’d made no commitment to Alexis and it was clear she didn’t want him there, either He lowered himself back down onto his chair, that sense of history repeating itself hitting hiain

So, he was to be kept in the dark, just like he’d been with Bree With her, she’d ed to time her appointments for days when he’d be busy and unable to acco back on it now, she must have requested that all information about her aneurysm be kept from him because he kne that they’d nancy

Waiting was hell Not knoas going on was even worse He couldn’t just sit here It was doing his head in He went to the receptionist and told her to let Alexis know he’d be waiting outside for her, then turned and left the building

It was cold and crisp today, the sun a distant beacon in a washed-out blue sky striated ispy streaks of cirrus cloud Raoul waited by his vehicle, and tried to tell himself he didn’t care that Alexis had shut hilad she didn’t want hi but a man broken by the past A man now too afraid to trust Look what had happened when he’d trusted her!

And if he kept telling his, surely eventually he’d convince himself he believed them

He uttered a sharp expletive under his breath and shoved his hands into his jacket pockets Leaning against the side of the Range Rover he lifted his face to the sun and closed his eyes If only he hadn’t given in, if only he had kept his distance If only she’d never come at all

Life was full of “if onlys,” soover thes had been si it In this case, it cah this all again? Could he watch her grow full with child, his child, and wait again in fear for what ht happen?

The ansift co No He couldn’t