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CHAPTER TWELVE

VICTORIA

When I got home from the beach, Jason still wasn’t there I cleaned up the aparth my mind and then went online to do another job search I applied for a few positions in the city and even a few that were far out in the county The trouble I was having was that before anyone illing to let you into their multi-million dollar estate as a service person, they wanted to do an extensive background If that were done in my case, they would easily find out about Alex and the baby and the court battle That would make anyone hesitant to let me into their home and their lives and I wouldn’t blame the else yet I’d taken the semester off of school to see what happened with the baby It was likely that I wouldn’t be able to go back for more than one The baby would need me and I would have to work I clicked off the internet and sighed I wasn’t quite sure how I got myself into these messes

I made myself a cup of decaffeinated tea and took it out on the balcony of the aparts for Alex There was no denying that I did have feelings for hiht be prone to tell me that I’ his back on both me and his child But when I look into his eyes I see so that for whatever reason, he’s afraid to admit… he’s afraid to feel But he was back with his wife, so what could ever co I could accept that, I suppose, but I didn’t want all of this anihting It wasn’t my nature

I felt a raindrop fall against , not wanting to go back into the apartment and wait for Jason to decide to come home and admit that this is my life I finally moved my chair back so that the rain didn’t hitfull in the hazy Los Angeles sky and underneath the cloud cover I could al to force their way out and be seen That’s what I felt like most of the time I knew that I had it in me to shine I knew that I had it in et in the way I needed to start es in my life and when I heard Jason coood of a time to start as any

I stood and went into the house He looked atin the rain?”

I shrugged “Just thinking,” I said “Hoas the barbeque?”

“It was fun,” he said sitting down on the couch “What did you do today?” I sat down in the chair across from him

“I saw Liz She fixed my mess of a hair for uess a simple compliment was too much to ask for these days I didn’t wait for it I kneasn’t co I went on and said, “I had lunch with my mother” He rolled his eyes and smirked at that My mother and the fact that I’d continued to have a relationship with her had been the source of ht I should be ashaht that she’s still my mother in spite of her character flaws I would probably never completely cut her off I really believed that in spite of it all, she did her best I went on and said, “Then I went to the beach for a while and took a walk on the pier”

“Hmm,” he said, completely disinterested Sometimes I wasn’t sure why he asked or why I bothered “Do you see the lawyers tomorrow?”

“Yes”

“Good Are things progressing?”

I shrugged “I wanted to talk to you about that I saw Alexander today” That got his attention

He sat up off the couch and with his eyebrows pulled together he said, “Why? Didn’t the attorneys tell you to stay away from him?”

“They did and I have been I just ran into him and he wanted to talk”

Jason snorted and said, “I hope you told hio”

“No, I sat and talked to him for a while,” I said He looked annoyed, but I went on quickly before he could interrupt me “He says that he never wanted any of this He was confused like I was Before he even had tih, his lawyers took it out of his hands His legal counsel is driving this lawsuit…”

“Of course he said that, Vicki This is exactly why you weren’t supposed to see hiuy here You’re too naïve to deal with this”

The naïve couy, Jason This is just an odd situation I don’t think either of us meant to put ourselves here” I know that I didn’t want to be here and I’m sure from his reaction he didn’t either