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It ed with possibility And then I see it in my mind, that moment where hesitation turns into deter ready to kisshis ar away, Bryce wraps his arht me in a stuet her to bed”

If that night had gone differently, would I still be driving this highway and fighting tears? Would we have gotten together and stayed together, da that ended, sating both of our curiosity? Would we have been caught byBryce’s exile years before now?

There are so etting caught up in the hypotheticals isn’t going to help s Still have Bryce in allmy father’s best friend Why did life have to be cruel like that? It just seems unfair

I e to find a radio station that doesn’t remind me entirely of Bryce, and listen to that for the duration of the drive toI textedup, and she was so happy that I ht need to come up here more often simply to hear that smile in her voice

It’s strange to note how the hedges have grown since I was here last That alone tells h the past few years Now that Bryce is out of the picture, co here won’t nearly be as painful

I mean, in one way it will, because if I see him, I’ll be reminded of what I can’t have But by the sas Can’t ruin things when I’ve already ruined them intentionally, you know?

When I pull up, my mom sees me out the , and rushes out toti since I saw you last,” she says “I need to come see you down in Boston I’m sorry about that”

“Don’t worry about it, Mom You are just as busy as I ae nonprofit that’s based here in Waterton Honestly, for all her talk aboutto hire somebody so I have free time, she rarely has any herself

“Still,” she says, “I’ to make an effort It shouldn’t be all on you for us to see each other I have a car, and I need to take the time”

“Well,” I say, drawing out the word “Ursula would really like to see you She misses you”

She beas from the car, Mom walks with me inside the house

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