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I was really, really nervous as I rode the elevator down all 23 stories to the lobby
One, I was nervous that I was about to do soet my ass chewed out by my boss
Two, I was all butterflies about seeing the stranger ned that golden voice If he sounded that good, iine how he must look…
Let uys I don’t flirt very well – in fact, any guy I find really attractive, I kind of lose it when I’et approached that h LA is the capital of pretty boys I hear most of them are narcissistic and self-involved; I wouldn’t know, since they rarely give uy does start talking to ly, airheaded responses that make me look stupid, or stilted, one-word answers that make me seem like I’m not interested, when in fact I’m just nervous as hell After a minute or two of that, most of the hot ones move on
I tend to end up dating average guys, guys I becouys who are sort of cute, not intiuy who becorows on you Nice guys Regular guys who are even-keeled and sweet, or at least sees start floating up to the surface
I like that – I like nice guys But once… just once… I wanted to have one of the hot ones
So I was nervous that he was going to be absolutely gorgeous, and that I was going to make a fool of myself
Three, I was prettyas his voice would suggest, and I didn’t want to ruin the fantasy
I know, it sounds stupid – “Oh, you’re afraid he’ll be good looking, and you’re afraid he’ll be ugly! Make up your damn mind!” Followed by a slap on the back of my head
But hear uy from the back, and you’re like ‘DAMN, break et to break me off a piece of that in reality, but I can still dreaeous hair, fantastic ar somebody went back in tie 27 Or 33 Or 38, even And then you see them from the front…
And you’re like, ‘Oh, no No, no, no’
It’s the ‘glamorous Hollywood is actually coe parlors’ effect
Or the Monet effect: beautiful froood up close I think that was from Clueless
Either way, reality doesn’t match up to fantasy
Souy looks like fros in a Greek teh that I treasure my little fantasies
It’s all about uys, it’s, ‘Oh, he’s kind of cute… I’ll go out with hiood personality… okay, I’ll give it a shot’