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I said it before I even thought about it:

“Giving in”

She looked atI’ve ever heard of”

She was right It kind of was

So I just went onto other reasons

“I shouldn’t do this”

“Says who?”

“It’s like sleeping ot this job”

“Or not sleeping your way to the top, in this particular case”

“You knohat I mean”

“Better to sleep your way to the top than to be like me and sleep your way to the middle”

“You’re doing pretty well”

“Yeah, and you could be, too, dummy What are you really afraid of?”

I sat there and thought about it for a long moment

“… that I should have made a different choice… that maybe I shouldn’t have left him, and now it’s too late Or maybe I’m afraid I’ll sleep with him because I won’t be able to stopexperience I had… this a couple of weeks that were probably the best in my entire life… that it was all bullshit That he’s just another guy, and after he tosses roupies, and that I never irl he didn’t sleep with four years ago”

“He didn’t sleep with me, either,” Shanna pointed out

“You knohat I mean” I paused to take another sip of wine, and then I asked, “I had to take 20th Century Literature at Syracuse, and we had to read The Sound And The Fury by William Faulkner… you ever read that?”

Shanna gave me a look like Are you serious?

“Even if I had to, do you really think I would’ve?”

“Stupid question,” I admitted “Okay, so, in The Sound And The Fury there’s this character na care of his niece for 17 years Her mother Candace had her out of wedlock back when that was really scandalous, and had to leave their town in Mississippi in disgrace So for 17 years Mo this crazy, decadent life, sleeping with rich men – ”

“Sounds like my kind of chick,” Shanna said