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Relief flooded over uilt pulled at me like undertow

I fixed hi to eat with h I re in the first place

Eventually we began to make out

Which led to sex

I’ to lie: I did it because it was expected of uilty And I did it because to not do it would have provoked a terrible fight, and ry and suspicious and impossible to be around

It was nice, though I enjoyed it Like when he kissedsex with him felt familiar and safe It was… pleasant

I didn’t h

We lay in bed talking for a good half hour – about Syracuse, about the next year, about our future together Then we started kissing again This ti prompted I told you he was very considerate

Norht I could tell he was getting frustrated by my lack of response I had two options: I could either fake an orgass – or I could actually try to have one I know it’s really, really bad of me, but I’d fantasized before about otherTatu

This tiht of Derek

I thought of hi his hair as he kissed ht of feeling his strong hands caressingunder his tattoos…

I came pretty quickly

Afterwards Kevin entered me, finished, and drifted off to sleep I lay there next to hi myself for what a horrible person I had become

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The next day passed uneventfully We slept late, had sex, got up, and had breakfast at the dining hall We came back to the room, showered, walked don, and poked around in the shops We had lunch at the Grill, an Athens institution (kind of like a hipster greasy spoon diner with the option of getting tofu in everything)

I intentionally steered Kevin away fro in my stomach

Other than that, it was a very pleasant afternoon We decided to eat dinner at the dining hall, watch ain

Well, Kevin wanted an early evening in – which was code for more sex

Maybe it was stupidity, or ht… but I co by at 5 o’clock

Until I heard the knock on the door