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He, on the other hand, was losing his mind for a whole host of reasons, the newest of which was this fucking club pushing in on their turf Just when life seeain
But even enemies weren’t what had hirew by the day, starting as a s, he was drinking Bourbon at two in thein a desperate attempt to fall asleep
Once before, he’d been in this exact position Waiting on his wo had been happy with his wife A soue had never uttered a sord and who could barely kill an ant, let alone best a grown ht She’d been a true southern bell Sweet, rational, unassuer to please
Basically, the co in their bed The kicker of it was, he’d loved his wife Truly loved the woman he’d married and planned to spend the rest of his life with And fuck, did he love that daughter they’d created The adorable little girl who’d been the spitting i nature
Fuck
Jig took a sip of his drink as he stared out into the night The h for him to make out the outline of the Sht, the vieasn’t enough to take his mind off his worries Neither was the Bourbon
Two things were responsible for Jig’s serious sleep deprivation
Guilt and fear
The guilt gnawed at hi its way deeper and deeper by the day He was not the sao He was no longer her Lincoln That man had died the day his wife and child were senselessly and brutally eful, and violentheels in love with a tough woman asn’t afraid of his darkness A woman who allowed those aspects of his personality, even welcomed them A woman who fucked him as well as she made love to him A woman his first ould have prayed for because she wouldn’t have understood her
Then again, Izzy sure as hell wouldn’t have understood Callie, either In fact, he was pretty sure his current woman would have hated his passive and docile wife And that’s where the guilt ca he had, but so a woh he was dishonoring Izzy for having those thoughts
Worst part of it all was that the man he was today would never have chosen Callie either She could never have survived a relationship with Jigsaw He’d have chewed her up and destroyed the light in her soul before spitting her out He’d have dragged her down to the darkness with him
How could that be? How could he have changed so er visualize a life with the woman he’d promised forever to?
Christ, his head was fucked beyond reason