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I should definitely feel all of those things, but I’ disappointed

“Definitely,” I say through what has to be my fiftieth forced smile of the day

Ryan offers a similar sentiment, but I’m too busy inside my own head to dissect his words and expression

We’re off the hook Both Ryan and I Soon, we’ll be heading back to our respective homes, thousands of miles apart, and I feel zero relief in that

Sure, I’m happy for my mom, and I’m happy she has Sal

But for the first tio back to Vail alone

And I don’t even knohat Ryan and I are at this point

So, add in all the confusion, and it’s enough to make my head explode and my heart ache

“Now, Sal and Stella, there a few things I want the two of you to keep doing,” Dr Sahts that I hardly hear a word he says

How did everything get so messed up?

I should be listening to the doctor’s instructions

I should be doingsure my mother remembers them after we leave here

But it takes the initial sounds of sounshot Instantly, I follow the direction of the ring and see Ryan pulling his cell phone out of his pocket

“I’ to step outside really quickly and take this”

And then, he’s gone Out the exam room door and into the hallway

For some insane reason, I almost follow him, but I realize that would be weird

So, I just stay rooted toStella and Sal

Continue water aerobics

Start increasing activity to daily twenty-minute walks

Stretch every ave them

Luckily, it’s a fairly straightforward list of things I’m confident the two of theether

“All those sound easy enough, but what I really want to knohat about intercourse?” Sal announces, and I cringe “Are there restrictions on our positions? How often can we do it? You know, give us all the iles