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Ender tried to remember what other children were like, in his class at school, back in the city But all he could think of was Stilson

"I had a brother Just a nor He wanted to fly He used to play ball with the guys A pickup ga down the corridors until the peace officers confiscated your ball We had a great ti me how to dribble when I was taken"

Ender remembered his own brother, and the memory was not fond Dink misunderstood the expression on Ender's face "Hey, I know, nobody's supposed to talk about home But we came from somewhere The Battle School didn't create us, you know The Battle School doesn't create anything It just destroys And we all res, but we remember and then we lie and pretend that--look, Ender, why is it that nobody talks about home, everl Doesn't that tell you how important it is? That nobody even admits that--oh hell"

"No, it's all right," Ender said "I was just thinking about Valentine My sister"

"I wasn't trying to make you upset"

"It's OK I don't think of her very et--like this"

"That's right, we never cry I never thought of that Nobody ever cries We really are trying to be adults Just like our fathers I bet your father was like you I bet he was quiet and took it, and then busted out and--"

"I'm not like my father"

"So ot an advanced case of Spanish honor He can't allow himself to have weaknesses To be better than hi off his balls That's why he hates you, because you didn't suffer when he tried to punish you He hates you for that, he honestly wants to kill you He's crazy They're all crazy"

"And you aren't?"

"I be crazy too, little buddy, but at least when I be craziest, I be floating all alone in space and the crazy, she float out of me, she soak into the walls, and she don't come out till there be battles and little boys bump into the walls and squish out de crazy"

Ender smiled

"And you be crazy too," said Dink "Coo eat"

"Maybe you can be a co about craziness means you don't have to fall for it"

"I'ot you pegged, too, and they don't plan to treat you kindly Look what they've done to you so far"