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Me: I’m done here

Jas surprises even me It’s like there’s an amplifier in her throat

"Shhhh Shhhh" I whirl around and pluck the blanket out of her car seat It takes a few tries before I have her bundled up like a burrito All the while, I’ her A ton of people online swear by a syste, side or stomach position, and…dammit, I can’t reotten Her face contorts into a puckered, unhappyskills

"Shush, swaddle, swing, side or sto?" I hum a few bars

Ja on in there?" Ray’s up and pounding onMoive a fuck She screams even louder

"Suck!" I shout in triue for the dresser in the corner, where all of Jamie’s paraphernalia is stored The door bursts open and Nana co to that child?" she yells over the baby

"Told you she was going to fuck up" Ray’s right behind her and can’t wait to offer his unwanted two cents

"Ray, that’s enough You go eat your French toast" Nana pushesfor?"

"Pacifier" I fu cloths until I find a paci

"Thought you were breastfeeding," Nana comments as I try to shove the pacifier into Jarade girlfriend’s I give up after she spits it out for the fifth time

"What do I do?" I ask Nana in desperation

"She wants the nip," Ray says froht? Panicked, I flip upthat Ray can see my bare breast Ja fro S has stopped I sag onto the bed in relief

In the middle of the rooot her hooked on the boob Now that’s all she’s ever gonna want"

"I like it" Ray gives me a smar go of ives a little cry as the fabric falls over her face "Seriously, just get out Nana, please"

"You should’ve used a bottle," Nana chides

"You should take your shirt off," is Ray’s helpful suggestion

I clenchto feed her while you’re at class?" Nana asks

Jaain I pull up the shirt despite the fact that Ray is leering at lance to Nana, who finally o on now, Ray Your breakfast is going to get cold"

"This isn’t going to work, Joy," he mutters "That kid can’t be attached to Rina’s tit all day"

"Leave the me "Babies cry"

Even before the door shuts, I whip off my shirt Jamie quiets as I direct ain, the tension starts to leech out of me

Holy shit

I don’t know if I can survive this Her little head is dwarfed by iant boob, but when her eyes open and her hand starts kneading roeak

The whole feeding process takes less than fifteen minutes It’s the only fifteen minutes of peace I have for the next two hours I can’t put her down Every time I try, she starts to cry, which sets off a bout of screa her around, learning to eat with one hand, changing her diaper using three diapers because I tear off the tapes of the first two

By the time Tucker checks in at noon, I’," I tell Jamie as she stares ather bundled fra?" he asks when I answer the phone

"I’ve had better days" I hitch Jaher on my shoulder Her face burrows into ht We shouldn’t have left the hospital"