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Like how you told me you loveon pure exhaustion"

His face tightens with disappointht If you want to play it that way, I’ll let it go for now" He opens the driver’s door "I’ll see you after work Call "

I want to tell hiabout how scared I am of motherhood

A dozen emotions slide and pulse beneath the thinvulnerable, I step back "We’ll be fine Coranite, I know it’s not the answer he wants

With a s to see hi Ja," Nana says defensively

"It’s fine," I tell her, fighting a so on ahead" Her gaze is glued to Jarandhtened heart, I hit the shower Nana’s clearly halfway in love with Ja thing in the world

I take a good, long, hot shohich they didn’t allow in the hospital due to the epidural Despite the pain, it feels good to be out of that hospital bed After drying off, I throw on a pair of old sweats and a T-shirt and then examine my reflection in the mirror

My body still feels weird and notlabor, so I look deive Helena Bonham Carter a run for her weird, crazy e and round--only now it’s squishy and soft My breasts have grown to enor I can’t have sex for six weeks I can’t even look at , let alone want Tucker to look at it

"You still doing the breastfeeding thing? I always used formula, and both you and your momma turned out fine" Nana eyesroom

"They’ve said it’s the best"

"H like that in People Well, you should probably feed the poor tyke then"

She hands the baby over, and I carefully tuck Ja on the edge of the bed, I lift up one side of ainst my chest with my chin, and then lift Jamie up to my boob She roots around like a little animal until she finds the nipple Thankfully, she latches on

I sigh with relief and scoot backward on the mattress until my shoulders hit the wall The lactation consultant warnedis hard as fuck--well, she didn’t use those words exactly, but that was the gist--so I’ up my phone, I one-hand type a couple of texts

Me: I’m home

Hope: When can I come over?

Carin: NO!!!!!!! I haven’t finished the booties Go back to the hospital!

Me: U sound like Tucker He didn’t want to leave either

Carin: Listen to ur BB daddy