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I get to ?" she whie of crackers from the minibar and toss theht back"

She’s still protesting as I leave the rooht blocks away I sprint toward it like I’ to qualify for the Olyot my coat at the hotel

Inside the pharmacy, I find three different tests I buy theivesstupid The death glare on et back, Sabrina is sitting on the edge of the bed eating the crackers I feel like the tests are superfluous at this point She could be a coly calo Three different ones"

"We’ve been safe," she says, her tone faraway as if she’s talking to herself rather than rih coives us peace of ht?"

She finishes her cracker in silence I don’t knohether to sit beside her or on the loveseat I opt for the couch to give her space Soht now, I have zero idea what’s going through her head

Slowly, she gets up and approaches the small cardboard boxes stacked on the desk as if they contain venoathers the boxes in her arms, and disappears into the bathrooainst the wall, even though I’m tempted as fuck to do it Instead, I turn on the television and watch a couple ladies try to sell me a velour tracksuit in various types of ani display for ten eternal minutes before the bathroom door opens Sabrina’s face is about the sa

"Positive?" I ask unnecessarily

She holds up an eo buy ten more of these"

I pat the sofa cushion next toany erent child, she stomps over Then she drops down next to me and covers her face with her hands "I can’t have a baby, Tucker I can’t"

A sick feeling curdles in my stomach It’s a weird mix of relief and disappointment The words I love you--the ones I wanted to say earlier when I was buried inside her--are stuck in my throat I can’t say them now

"You do whatever you need to," I whisper into her hair "I’ve got you"

It’s all I feel like I can say at this point, and I know it’s not enough

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Tucker

I always thought that if I knocked someone up, I’d be able to talk to my friends about it But I’ve known for nearly a week that le word to anyone