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In a word it was this

She had coloat Oh! she spared herself nothing, as she stood there, crirave of a rival Aaret Marie Deronnais--had given way to jealousy of this grocer's daughter, becausebecauseshe had begun to care, really to care, for the , and this lance, beyond such as a brother ive to a sister There was the naked truth

Her s now She perceived that that sudden anger at breakfast had been personal disappointment--not at all that lofty disinterestedness on behalf of the mother that she had pretended She understood too, now, thecontented arden walks, alert for plantains, the o, on behalf of a certain hazel which the gardener wanted to cut down

"You had better wait till Mr Laurence comes home," she had said "I think he once said he liked the tree to be just there"

She understood nohy she had been so intuitive, so condemnatory, so critical of the boy--it was that she was passionately interested in him, that it was a pleasure even to abuse him to herself, to call him selfish and self-centered, that all this lofty disapproval was just the sop that her subconsciousness had used to quiet her uneasiness

Little scenes rose before her--all passed almost in a flash of ti latch of the gate, and she saw herself in the, in love with a man as not in love with her

She ate, and reat steady eyes and well-cut profile, a , self-contemptuous, abject wretch

It must be remembered that she was convent-bred

II

By the tied her emotions fairly satisfactorily She ca, that after all she was not yet actually in love with Laurie, but was in danger of being so, and that therefore now that she knew the danger, and could guard against it, she need not actually withdraw fron mission-field