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"Bo has answered you with her feelings," replied Helen, "I could not do that and be honest The fact that Bo wouldn't shoot the lion after we treed him acquits her Nevertheless, her answer is purely physical You know, Mr Dale, how you talk about the physical I should say hly sensitive, hot-blooded female of the species She exulted in that chase as an Indian Her sensations were inherited ones--certainly not acquired by education Bo always hated study The ride was a revelation toBut over against them was the opposition of reason, of consciousness A new-born side of , violent, irresistible It was as if another side of my personality suddenly said: 'Here I am Reckon with me now!' And there was no use for theHelen Rayner, was powerless Oh yes, I had such thoughts even when the branches were stingingto the bay of the hound Once my horse fell and threw me You needn't look alarmed It was fine I went into a soft place and was unhurt But when I was sailing through the air a thought flashed: this is the end ofdreadfully Much of what I felt and thought on that chase must have been because of what I have studied and read and taught The reality of it, the action and flash, were splendid But fear of danger, pity for the chased lion, consciousness of foolish risk, of a reckless disregard for the serious responsibility I have taken--all these worked in ht have been a sheer physical, primitive joy of the wild moment"
Dale listened intently, and after Helen had finished he studied the fire and thoughtfully poked the red embers with his stick His face was still and serene, untroubled and unlined, but to Helen his eyes see and wonder She had carefully and earnestly spoken, because she was very curious to hear what he ht say
"I understand you," he replied, presently "An' I'm sure surprised that I can I've read my books--an' reread them, but no one ever talked like that to me What I make of it is this You've the saer than brain Reood for you to have it run an' beat an' burn, as Bo's did Your blood did that a thousand years or ten thousand before intellect was born in your ancestors Instinct reater than reason, but it's a ht your instincts so hard If they were not good the God of Creation would not have given them to you To-day your ether restrain You couldn't forget yourself You couldn't FEEL only, as Bo did You couldn't be true to your real nature"