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He was angry with all of them for their interference just because

he felt in his soul that they, all these people, were right He

felt that the love that bound him to Anna was not a ues do pass, leaving

no other traces in the life of either but pleasant or unpleasant

memories He felt all the torture of his own and her position,

all the difficulty there was for them, conspicuous as they were

in the eye of all the world, in concealing their love, in lying

and deceiving; and in lying, deceiving, feigning, and continually

thinking of others, when the passion that united the else but

their love

He vividly recalled all the constantly recurring instances of

inevitable necessity for lying and deceit, which were so against

his natural bent He recalled particularly vividly the shame he

had

and deceit And he experienced the strange feeling that had

sometimes come upon hi of loathing for so--whether for Alexey

Alexandrovitch, or for himself, or for the whole world, he could

not have said But he always drove away this strange feeling

Now, too, he shook it off and continued the thread of his

thoughts