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In the early days after his return frorew red, rerace of his

rejection, he said to himself: "This was just how I used to

shudder and blush, thinking myself utterly lost, when I was

plucked in physics and did not get ht

ed that affair of my

sister's that was entrusted to me And yet, now that years have

passed, I recall it and wonder that it could distress me so

too with this trouble Tio by and I shall not mind about this either"

But threeabout

it; and it was as painful for him to think of it as it had been

those first days He could not be at peace because after

drea himself so ripe for

it, he was still not e He was painfully conscious himself, as were all about

him, that at his years it is not well forfor Moscow he had once said to his

cow

to: "Well, Nikolay! I et married," and how Nikolay had