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"What's this? A out of o out of their minds; what makeshis eyes, he
saonder an embroidered cushion beside him, worked by
Varya, his brother's wife He touched the tassel of the cushion,
and tried to think of Varya, of when he had seen her last But
to think of anything extraneous was an agonizing effort "No, I
must sleep!" He moved the cushion up, and pressed his head into
it, but he had to make an effort to keep his eyes shut He
jumped up and sat down "That's all over for me," he said to
himself "I must think what to do What is left?" His h his life apart from his love of Anna
"Ambition? Serpuhovskoy? Society? The court?" He could not
co before, but
now there was no reality in it He got up from the sofa, took
off his coat, undid his belt, and uncovering his hairy chest to
breathe more freely, walked up and down the rooo mad," he repeated, "and how they shoot themselvesto
escape humiliation," he added slowly
He went to the door and closed it, then with fixed eyes and
clenched teeth he went up to the table, took a revolver, looked
round hiht
For two minutes, his head bent forith an expression of an