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I was to learn no difficult it sometimes is in new forms

of trial, to be quiet and submissive and trust I used to be

able to trust myself and my wants with God; I found at this

ti, and of fear, was very hard

to still I was ready to trust, if Ito wait, if only we ht not be

separated at last But now to trust and to wait, when all was

in doubt for ht never have another; when all the future was a cloudy sea

and a rocky shore; I felt that I must have this one moment of

peace Yet I prayed for it submissively; but I am afraid my

heart made its own cry unsubmissively

I was restless The days that followed the President's levee

were one after the other filled up with engageive that ter interest for rew only more secretly

restless with every one My companions seemed to find it all

amusement, the rides and parades and receptions that were

constantly going on; I only saw everywhere the preparation for