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"To Sir Nicholas Thoran, and then) "Dear Sir: Circumstances force me to work--so I shall have to remain in your

service--if you require me I am unfortunately quite defenceless, so I

appeal to whatever chivalry there is in you not to nation

Yours faithfully,

A Sharp"

I fell back in ! My

queen!--whose very footprints I worship--to have had to write such a

letter--to me!

The unspeakable brute beast I felt! All my cynical calculations about

women fell from me--I saw myself as I had been all day--utterly

selfish--not really feeling for her grief, onlycapital out of it

for my own benefit-- At that ht, I suffered every shade of self reproach and abasement a man can

feel And next day I had to stay in bed because I had done so doithout help

When I knew I could not get into Paris by Saturday when Alathea was to

come to the flat--I sent Burton in with a note to the shop in the Avenue