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Suspense is the hardest thing to bear--what a ridiculous truism! It has

been said a thousand tiain!--because it has come to everyone at some moment, and so its pain

is universally understood To have attained serenity would h not to allow suspense to cause one a moment's doubt or

distress I am far from serenity, I fear--for I am filled with unrest--I

try to tell myself that Alathea Sharp does not matter in my life at

all--that this is the end--that I am not to be influenced by her

s--I try not to think

of her even as "Alathea"--And then when I have succeeded in so coht below the heart What on earth is the good of

living an ugly maimed life?

It was ten ti and

fearso, than it is nohen

everything is done for my comfort, and I have all that money can buy

What h I ain, and try to feel the thrill of pride I used to feel

when I was a boy at the line "I am the master of my fate, I am the