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I will, however, be bold enough to assure you that could I bring myself to be the wife of any ain
Nevertheless, I am your most affectionate friend, MATILDA CARBURY
About six o'clock in the afternoon she sent this letter to Mr Broune's rooms in Pall Mall East, and then sat for awhile alone,--full of regrets She had throay fro which would certainly have served her for her whole life Even at this moment she was in debt,--and did not kno to pay her debts without ed for some staff on which she could lean She was afraid of the future When she would sit with her paper before her, preparing her future work for the press, copying a bit here and a bit there, inventing historical details, dovetailing her chronicle, her head would so round as she remembered the unpaid baker, and her son's horses, and his une As regarded herself, Mr Broune would have made her secure,--but that noas all over Poor woman! This at any rate rets would have been as deep
Mr Broune's feelings were more decided in their tone than those of the lady He had not made his offer without consideration, and yet from the very ently sarcastic appellation by which Lady Carbury had described him to herself when he had kissed her best explained that side of Mr Broune's character which showed itself in this oose Had she allowed hiht probably have gone on; and, whatever ht have coe He had believed that her little manoeuvres had indicated love on her part, and he had felt himself constrained to reciprocate the passion She was beautiful in his eyes She was bright She wore her clothes like a lady; and,--if it ritten in the Book of the Fates that some lady was to sit at the top of his table,--Lady Carbury would look as well there as any other She had repudiated the kiss, and therefore he had felt hiht to kiss her
The offer had no sooner beenin, drunk, at the front door As he made his escape the lad had insulted him This perhaps helped to open his eyes When he woke the next ht's work, he was no longer able to tell hiht with hi, that first s as they have been and are to be; and the lowness of heart, the blankness of hope which follows the first remembrance of some folly lately done, soar too lass of brandy and soda-water which he should have left untasted? And when things have gone well, how the waker co the bedclothes as he claims for himself to be whole all over, teres atque rotundus,--so to have ed his little affairs that he has to fear no harm, and to blush inwardly at no error! Mr Broune, the way of whose life took hi many perils, who in the course of his work had to steer his bark a his daily account as he shook off sleep about noon,--for such was his lot, that he seldo On this Wednesday he found that he could not balance his sheet coreat step and he feared that he had not taken it isdom As he drank the cup of tea hich his servant supplied him while he was yet in bed, he could not say of his ith hiarette he bethought himself that Lady Carbury would not like his 'I'll be d----- if he shall live in my house,' he said to himself