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I left Horton Lodge, and went to join my mother in our new abode at A- I found her well in health, resigned in spirit, and even cheerful, though subdued and sober, in her general demeanour We had only three boarders and half a dozen day-pupils to co to increase the nuy to discharge the duties of this new mode of life I call it NEW, for there was, indeed, a considerable difference betorking witha; and for the first feeeks I was by no ain,' and 'will it be of any consequence to you whether we do or not?'--Those words still rang in my ear and rested on my heart: they were ain--He will coht or too extravagant for Hope to whisper in my ear I did not believe half of what she told h at it all; but I was far more credulous than I myself supposed; otherwise, why did my heart leap up when a knock was heard at the front door, and the entleman wished to see her? and as I out of humour for the rest of the day, because it proved to be a music-master come to offer his services to our school? and what stopped ht a couple of letters, nes, this is for you,' and threw one of them to me? and what made the hot blood rush into entle sense of disappointment fall upon me, when I had torn open the cover and found it was ONLY a letter from Mary, which, for some reason or other, her husband had directed for her?

Was it then come to this--that I should be DISAPPOINTED to receive a letter from my only sister: and because it was not written by a coer? Dear Mary! and she had written it so kindly- -and thinking I should be so pleased to have it!--I was not worthy to read it! And I believe, in ainst myself, I should have put it aside till I had schooled myself into a better fra of the honour and privilege of its perusal: but there wason, and wishful to knohat news it contained; so I read it and delivered it to her, and then went into the schoolroom to attend to the pupils: but amidst the cares of copies and su derelictions of duty there, I was inwardly taking myself to task with far sterner severity 'What a fool you must be,' said my head to my heart, or my sterner to my softer self;--'how could you ever drearounds have you for such a hope--or that he will see you, or give hiain?'