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But all that was good and ainst the plan In the first place, he instinctively felt that his mother and sisters' views on nearly all subjects would be continually at variance with his own, since they were co to look at life from such totally different standpoints He also believed that he would be an ever-present burden and source of mortification to them As a child and a boy he had been their idol They had looked forward to the time when he, with irreproachable manners and reputation, would become their escort in the exclusive circles in which they were entitled to move Noas and would continue to be the insuperable bar to those circles; and by their sighs and manner he would be continually reminded of this fact Fallen idols are a perpetual offence to their former worshippers, as they ever re hopes

With all his faults, Haldane had too h life as one who round, and concerning whom no questionsand carefully, and concluded that even for his mother and sisters' sake it would be best that they should live apart If he could thoroughly retrieve his character where he had lost it, they would be reconciled to him; if he could not, he would be less of a burden and a mortification absent than present

When he considered his own feelings, the thought of skulking and hiding through life ust Conscience sided with his inclination to go back to his old, hard fight at Hillaton; and it also appeared to him that he could there better ainst hi course marked out by his mother He also renition he could get at Hillaton as a changed, a better man, it would be based on the rock of truth

He therefore concluded to go back as he had intended, and with the decision ca up in his heart like the sweet refreshing waters of a spring, the consciousness of which filled his heart with courage and confidence as to the future

"Surely," he exclaie, sweet eladness of heart in the , prove that I am I have not taken this journey in vain"