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Haldane shook his head, and after a ly said, as ood advice: "I'et out I can see the sunny uplands that I long to reach, but everything is quaking and giving way under rand ser, my spirit flamed up hopefully Now he has placed a duty directly in my path that I cannot perform by myself Mrs Arnot has made it clear to me that the manhood I need is Christian manhood Dr Barstow proves out of the Bible that the first step toward this is conversion--which seeuely understand I must do my part myself, he says, yet I am wholly dependent on the will and co-operation of another Just what am I to do? Just when and hoill the help come in? How can I know that it will come? or how can I ever be sure that I have been converted?"

"O, stop splittin' hairs!" said Mr Growther, testily "Hanged if I can tell you how it's all goin' to be brought about--go ask the parson to clear up these p'ints for you--but I can tell you this in' toothache, and it suddenly stopped and you felt comfortable all over, wouldn't you know it? But that don't express it You'd feel ood you couldn't hold in You'd be fur shoutin'; you wouldn't know yourself Why, doesn't the Bible say you'd be a new critter? There'll be just such a change in your heart as there is in this old kitchen e coht the candles, and kindle a fire I tell you what 'tis, young h over"

Though the picture of this possible future was drawn in such homely lines, Haldane looked at it istful eyes He had becoht his sense beneath the grotesque iery As he was then situated, the future drawn by the old man and interpreted by himself was peculiarly attractive He was very , to wish to be happy He had been led to believe that conversion would lead to a happiness as great as it was mysterious--a sort of miraculous ecstasy, that would render him oblivious of the hard and prosaic conditions of his lot Through misfortune and his own fault he possessed a very defective character This character had been for, and Mrs Arnot had asserted that refor, patient, and heroic effort Indeed, she had suggested that in fighting and subduing the evils of one's own nature a hthood He had already learned how severe was the conflict in which he had been led to engage