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After the excitement caused by his unexpected intervieith Laura subsided, and Haldane was able to think it over quietly, it seemed to hiood his proud words, for to go "crawling back" after what he had said to-day, and, of all persons, to the one whose opinion he ht of which even he could not endure

Having finished his task, he scarcely glanced at the pittance which the woht to the city post-office He was so agitated with conflicting hopes and fears that his voice trembled as he asked if there were any letters addressed to E H, and he was so deeply disappointed that he was scarcely willing to take the careless negative given He even went to the express office, in the vague hope that the wary editors had rerew heavier at each brisk state for E H"

He was so weary and low-spirited when he reached his diss that he felt no disposition either to eat or drink, but sat down in the back part of the wretched, ave hihts With mental imprecations he cursed hiirl who once had been his companion Never before had she see character as lovely as her person She was like Mrs Arnot--the woman who seemed to him perfect--and what more could he say in her praise? And yet his folly had placed between theulf He was not misled by her kindness, for he remembered her words, and now believed them, "If I ever love a man he will be one that I can look up to and respect" If he could only have recognized her noble tendencies hesuch ato her, his social position would have given hiht to have aspired to her hand Why had he not had sufficient sense to have realized that she was young-- to understand his rash, hasty passion? Why could he not have learned froht possibly be won by patient and manly devotion, but would be forever repelled froht of experience he saw his mistakes From his present depth he looked up, and saw the inestiround which he once possessed In his deep despondency he feared he never would regain it, and that his hopes of literary success would prove delusive