Page 190 (1/1)

"I am sorry indeed," said Cecilia, "to find he has so deep a sense of the failure of his expectations: but how happens it that you are soand inexperienced as you are, and early as you must have been accustomed, from your mother as well as from Mr Belfield, to far other doctrine, the clearness of your judgment, and the justness of your reht up as I have been brought up, there is little wonder I should see the danger of an high education, letelse; for I, and all my sisters, have been the sufferers the whole tiht forward, while ere denied co the evil of soto our proper station? instead of living in continual inconvenience, and having one part of a fa with distress, only to let another part of it appear in a way he had no right to!"

"How rationally," said Cecilia, "have you considered this subject! and how much do I honour you for the affection you retain for your brother, notwithstanding the wrongs you have suffered to promote his elevation!"

"Indeed he deserves it; take but from him that one fault, pride, and I believe he has not another: and hu child as from his infancy he has always been, who at that can wonder, or be angry?"

"And he has still no plan, no scheme for his future destination?"

"No, madam, none at all; and that it isso miserable makes him so ill, for Mr Rupil says that with such uneasiness upon his et well O it is melancholy to see how he is altered! and how he has lost all his fine spirits! he that used to be the life of us all!--And now he hardly ever speaks a word, or if he does, he says so so sorrowful that it cuts us to the soul! But yesterday, when ht he was asleep, he lifted up his head, and looked at us both with the tears in his eyes, which almost broke our hearts to see, and then, in a low voice, he said 'What a lingering illness is this! Ah, ht to wish it quicker over! for should I recover, er like this illness' And afterwards he called out, 'what on earth is to become of me? I shall never have health for the army, nor interest, nor means; what am I to do? subsist in the very prime of my life upon the bounty of a ed mother! or, with such an education, such connections as mine, enter at last into some mean and sordid business?'"