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"He was jealous of them, because you cared for the for h "What makes you think so?"

"That His cruelty"

"Love can be very cruel"

"Not as cruel as that," she said

"Yes As cruel as that Remember, it was at the bottom of the whole business Of his dreams In a sense, the real John Conas the ht he was the man as cruel, too And it's his cruelty I hate"

"Don't hate it Don't hate it I want you to understand his cruelty It wasn't just savagery It was soet power Reht hi in hih cruelty? You'll say he could help betraying you--"

"To you, too?"

"To me, too When you lost faith in him you cut off his main source of power You had to be discredited so that it shouldn't count Youon purpose He was driven It sounds horrible, but I want you to see it was just his way of saving his soul, the only way open to hiood way It wasn't even his way It was the way of so he could ever be Bigger than badness or goodness"

"Did 'it' do cowardly things to 'save' itself?"

"No If Conway could have played thehim""Try," he said, and she knew that now at any rate he was sincere; he really wanted to help her; he was giving her his best His voice was very quiet now, his excited gestures had ceased "Try and think of it as so more real, more i that is always struggling to be, to go on being So to keep under Power A power in retreat, fighting to get back its lost ground"

Then what she had loved was not John Conway What she had hated was not he He was this So or your ceasing to love and hate So that tortured you and betrayed you because that was the only way it knew to save itself